Ok so I’m behind again. I’m writing this not as a red-pencil, but as a rat race junkie who slipped off the wagon. Perhaps my mistakes can help you stay focused. It starts as a slow fade. You miss a sit, you answer the phone before you’ve finished reading the chapter. I’ll finish after the call. Another call, someone knocks at the door. This behavior soon turns to once a day readings, once a week sits. Pretty soon I’m right back in the old blueprint, running the rat race and hating my life. My DMP is still on my mind as I perform mundane tasks for other people that don’t care. Am I a people pleaser? Why would I help a person move when I want to be working my business? Well I’ve recognized a couple of MKMMA principles at play. The first brings us back a few months to the story of the peptides. As you may recall, Mark shared a story about a guy who hated crowds and long lines, yet everyday he chose the crowded coffee shop instead of the empty coffee shop next door. He did this subconsciously. I thought this was a crazy story, but his peptides needed a fix. I soon saw this exact story play out in my friends life. Jay leads a very busy life with multiple business’s and four children. He values his outdoor time very highly. Often when we schedule an outing together, he has to cancel because of some retarded drama he has going on. I’m always amazed at how he gets caught up in the stupidest situations because he is a sharp guy who knows better. After watching the same scenario play out over and over, I now realize that his peptides are getting their fix. Some how he’s getting back what he’s putting out. What’s worse is that I now see it in me. I’m scared to say “no”. I can easily get caught up with good intentions of helping people, but end up resenting the fact that I haven’t done what’s more important first. I need to keep the main thing the main thing. This leads to the second dynamic at play. Believing the lie that if I just get these few tasks over with, then I will be able to focus in my sit. As my guide gently pointed out, there will always be more tasks. The key is to be able to sit in the “mist of”. So true. Even as I type this it is a struggle not to answer the never ending texts and phone calls. But I will. I don’t like the old blueprint. Stay the course my friends!!
Weeks 21 and 22 – A warning to others!